Michael Jackson paperdoll book $9.99usd http://store.doverpublications.com/0486477967.html

I wonder what everyone is doing up here for new year's eve??

My throat is waaay better still owwie but I can swallow now, tanks to those who reminded me about gargling salt water!!!

I totally wanna see avatar again...but I bought pizza lastnight as i was still too ill to stand too long to cook. Darn, why must pizza be so expensive??????

Just wanted to write a list thats all :)

Christmas gifts I have recieved.

• Mum: Mjj memorial magazine + $50 (I spent on xmas gifts for others and food)
• Grandad: $50 (I spent on xmas gifts for others an food)
• Fox-in-a-box: X2 mlp, G1 Ponybride, G1 TE Fizzy, A G2 sticker, Gorgeous fairy-dust vial necklace <3
• Self gifts, Layby I picked up today: X3 Mjj items, X1 book 'Mjj man-in-the-mirror', x1 book 'Mjj legend hero icon', x1 cd set thisisit souviner version.

Over the past few weeks ive had money to buy:, deoderant, body wash, treat myself to sushi and bugerking, See a movie 'The imaginarium of dr parnasuss', bought x3 dvds "shes the man, anistacia/bartok the magnificent twin pack, The eudcation of little tree", and "positively pink" G3.5 Mlp/dvd pack.

I am thankful for the many seasons greetings and well wishes sent in my direction.

Xmas art gifts I have recieved:
Painted figurine by rebelshade of my equisonna http://rebelshade.deviantart.com/art/Christmas-Gifts-09-Moonfeathe-146052701
My equisonna amongst a herd by Kalmakoira http://kalmakoira.deviantart.com/art/MERRY-CHRISTMAS-EVERYONE-146943131
My equine character Hollow, as a sleigh horse by life-d-sign http://life-d-sign.deviantart.com/art/Ring-all-ye-christmas-bells-147758466
Chibbi Mooner by nekonotaishou http://nekonotaishou.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Holidays-2009-147906004
My equine characters The Pumpkin King and Ghede amongst a lineup by Cascadance http://cascadance.deviantart.com/art/For-the-HArpg-Mods-148041857

Thank you, every one of you for your gifts, I treasure them deeply, it means alot to me.

Happy holidays all!

Current Mood: tired

Dakota pup took me to see Avatar 3D!!!
My immediate reaction..I wanna watch it again!! And fanarts and draw me as one!!! haha so inspirational.

Though..the creatures did look ALOT like Allison Theus's work...girl were you involved in this? Or did they take inspiration from you!!!

Did make me think of fern gully briefly an Lotr briefly too

BUT omg Im so buying this AND seeing it again!!

I was tearful and in awe!!

Then we had Dennys foo and watched the stars come out.

Am exhausted now though...need more echinacea shots for my throat...hurts to swallow now so much I dont wanna...had a brief migrane and cold shivers...

time for me to rest up

but omg I wanna art so much now!

Current Mood: happy

So..its christmas ay here..and guess what

Fox in a box's parcel was waiting outsie my door!!!

Am still owwie so my 'yay's' and such were more like pathetic croaks lol

Thankyou so much foxy they are gorgeous! I love the xmas tree insie the card with the parcels beneith and heart decorations an purple star.
Love the G2 sticker!
The necklace is GORGEOUS and the wee box it's in just made me squee, I love see-through boxes.
Ponybride and Fizzy G1 MLP FTW!!! *big glomp hugs*

Im so happy it arrived toay, it was the only gift for me to open.

No family up here so I cant have a family xmas
and friends are busy with thier own xmas stuff...im sick anyway though.

So yeah.

Christmas day by myself. Not even a big feast to gorge on...went to a bbq a day ago so I guess I did my xmas gorging then.

Kina sad though...hearing families over the fences enjoying thier xmas celebration...lots of kids laughing an playing.

I honestly dont know how I feel about it, I guess being ill has kindly mellowed me out so im not realy upset..just kinda..'oh' feeling.
This realy has been the wierdest xmas though.

I hope everyone else enjoys thier xmas/christmas etc extra hard just for me :)

Current Mood: sick

 Ive been ill allday I thought i might die

I  barely could get out of bed to toilet...my throat is so swollen..Ive had a fever all day my joints ache and my guts feel like ive been punched

threw myself into a shower/bath feel a bit better, but my balence still isnt good

I feel aweful

I hope its not Swine or mad cow :(

*moans in pain holding head in hand*

we have summer here not winter at xmas

My body aches and feels cold but my head is warm...do I have a fever?? I think I might lay down a bit.

....how could I get flu??...are they flu symptoms? Im thinking strep throat, as that always flares up when im run down/havent slept properly and been on the go.

DO NOT WANT

Im supposed to be going to the post office and sending something and town to pay off my layby that ends this week...*cries* deadline was week b4 xmas...will they sell my layby????

Ill have to bus on boxing day or something.

*pathetic look*

Current Mood: sick

ugh I feel like crap, had a fullon weekend visiting people and getting next to no sleep.

My throat is swollen and sore and its so hard to swallow. *sigh*
This always happens when I run myself into the ground.

Whats worse is I couldnt sleep last night, dint get to sleep till 5am....then Footfoot woke me at 11am....thats only 6 hours sleep...anyone who knows me knows I need 8hours of sleep at least...I feel like a zombie..I just wanna fall back into bed again.

*grumbles*

Xmas by myself, but thats ok, no family up here and all friends are busy.

Didnt get to see Avatar on Imaxx as the projector broke apparently.....so no Avatar till after xmas I guess...im very sad I was so looking forward to it.

*grumbles more*

hurts to swallow...just put me outta my misery.

*hangs head in hands*

Current Mood: exhausted

ooooooook what about me??

I am a Michael Jackson fan, and have been since I was 5 years old, he has been a huge inspiration and source of comfort.

I cant sleep in most beds as they feel hard an uncomfortable, my body gets aches and pains or goes numb..I swear its like princess and the pea, a bed spring will always somehow get me in the rib or hip or breast.

My childhood toy horses all have specific family groups and partners and when displayed, must be in thier correct groups.

New toy horses go through 'assessment' of where they fit in exisiting groups or if they get thier own new one.

I talk aloud to my cat open so much like a person, that often my exes or friends will think i was talking to them.

Sometimes during a conversation I will break into song, because someone said a lyric line or song title they didnt realise they did or the topic of conversation reminds me of a song.

I love to imitate sounds and voices.
I can neigh like a horse, meow like a cat, bark like a dog and beep beep like a car alarm. I like to immitate different singer's vocal styles.

I love water.

I love food and sweet foods

I cant stand ginger, if ginger touches my sushi I gag as I try eat it.
I cant stant spearmint but love peppermint

I cant stant Aniseed, like irish moss or Absynthe, but enjoy natural licoriche from time to time.

I go nuts for candycanes and squeel like a kid for the giant ones!!
I love first snow but cant stand the cold

I hate the idea of being in water..but once im in it I love it and refuse to get out.

Im facinated by medical stuff, but scared of hospitals and needles..I get very nauseas. I had a bad experience with my first ever vaccination..I swear that needle was longer than the width of my arm!!!

I love toys, soft toys, figurines

I love teddybears soft toys bigger than me or super sized.

I hate clutter so I stack things alot if there is too much stuff in a room

I CANT STAND a messy kitchen it drives me bonkers!!!

I LOVE to bake and I clean up as I go along.

I enjoy hugs from my best friends and partners, but not from my family.

I hate kissing..but when I cant have it...I miss it.
I cant stand salaiva

I love long hair and nails

I have an obsession with eyes

I like gothic style men, and clowns, a man in a corset is very hot

Im addicted to drawing, if I cant draw due to lack of pencil/paper I get very fidgety

Im allergic to most soaps and body products

Bloodsucking insects love me, and I swell up huge from bites.

Im obsessed with making lists..lists of everything, all the time

I always have art ideas, I write down or thumbnail but never actually end up creating

Ive been writing a book for the past 9 years

I procrastinate due to anxiety...its like a physical barrier..I get fearful, othertimes its no biggie to do what needs to be done.

I suffer Anxiety, high stress, PTSD

I cant STAND the sight or sound of people vomiting or spitting

I love the idea of being pregnant and having kids, but im TERRIFIED of childbirth, dealing then with the kids being sick, snot drool diarrahoea...it terrifies me.

I can handle cat/animal poopies and vomit no problem.

I love themed merchandise/toys, holidays, xmas, valentines, halloween, easter, fathers day, mothers day, weddings etc

I used to be scared of the dark, it comes and goes, If I can see a street lamp, hallway light or starlight im fine.

If ive moved anything around in my room, even posters, I dont sleep well that night.

If I have a really bad nightmare, I have to sleep the rest of the night with the light on.

If ive just moved house or staying at a friends place, I sometimes get night terrors and forget where I am and get dissorientated.

I suffer night terrors, it comes and goes.

I feel safe at night if my cat is in the room with me.

I love watching clouds, sunsets, sunrises, ocean waves, waterfalls.

If I hear about a death of a friends pet or animal, or see one on the side of the road I instantly start to cry. I cant handle seeing an animal in pain or suffering, it hurts me too, I feel empathic to animals.

I LOVE music, singing to it, dancing to it, I get really involved, so some music I cant listen to as it affects me too much.

I often fall asleap listening to Michael jackson on my mp3 player, I used to do this as a kid with my walkman.

I have moved house 30times when I lived 17 years with my mum, she moved house alot.

Due to moving house alot Ive been to 17 different schools

I was bullied and physically beaten up by other kids at many schools

I was often called a freak even as a kid

Ive come to love and accept myself and the parts that others wont accept and call me freak for --- enjoying childish things like MLP

I love christmas trees, real and fake.

I love costumes

I love movies, especially sci fi, fantasy and comedy

Scary movies honestly scare me, because I can imagine them being real, I get too involved in the movie exerience. Aliens and ghosts are a no go zone

Ironicly I love star trek, star wars and the aliens/xenomorph movies

I like movies about killers ironicly

Im scared of spiders but im working on that

Im not very close to my family except my grandfather, im arrogantly idependant, but cling to my partners like there is no tomorrow

I can be very flirty by nature

Im bi but only ever dated x2 girls, my L-radar is broken and im too shy if I get it wrong.

Im wierd when meeting new people, im either very shy, or over the top loud and outgoing

If I have less that 8 hours sleep I feel ill, if I have less than six watch out, if Ive had 5 or less, keep hidden ill eat your soul.

If Ive been interrupted during my sleep, I have to start the 8 hour sleep cycle allover again.

Sometimes I feel like ive a split personality, one hot and steamy and flirty and adult and proper, the other obnoxious, cheeky, fun, playful and childish. I flick between these very fast.

Sometimes ill black out and not remember saying or typing something that I did 2 seconds ago or daysago..it can be really scary.

I have an open mind, I dont juge people unless they prove me wrong themselves.

I can be quite mellow.

Full moon = flirty times
Black moon = death and destruction

If litteraly or verbally backed into a corner I am a scary monster not to be messed with. I dont like to be verbally attacked on all sides without given the chance to speak or choose for myself.
If I say dont touch me, dont push the envelope I will bite.

I love sleeping in a bed freshly made with clean linnen.

Hot water bottles put me to sleep

If ive gotten really full from eating I get sleepy.

Sometimes I really need a nana nap
My naps usually last 3 hours

Sometimes my self confidence and self worth is very low

Sometimes I feel so happy I could fly

I mood swing alot and dont often get to stay in happy mode too long

I think too much

I can work myself up on possible imagined scenarios

If im upset, silence from a friend or partner can suddenly make it worse and my mind will blow it way out of proportion, a brief talk usualy snubbs it out and its as if it never happened.

I am too forgiving

I am high maintenance....or so im told by friends

One of my friends asked if I was bipolar --- this has worried me ever since.

uhm...yeah

thats all for now XD

im so bored im guna go outa my mind